my last day.

its thursday.
tmr will be Friday.
My last day in Alexandra Hospital.
d first hospital that i practice my hands on skills.
got placed in a B2 class male ward.
i see how life come n go so easily.
i see d worst behaviour of a human being.
still rmb e first day in AH,
i was like a blur sotong.
everything also dunno.
i slowly grew to become stronger in handling emotions, skills, procedures.
d scoldings, e sarcastic remarks, d happiness, d sadness, d laughter.
from taking temperature to removing intravenous device, thousands of "thank you" i've received frm patients, felt so warm, so true.
You took care of everyone just like your love ones.
Watch some suffer in pain and u just want to be there to sayang them.
i've never felt so weak inside.
thinking of letting go nursing makes me feel tat im nth but a selfish person.
there are many lifes out there that need to be saved, to care and yet i can give up so easily.
im in a dilemma now.
Will tmr be my very last day wearing my uniform bringing hopes to life?
i need an answer. BADLY-